Today I went on a walk. I don't know why. I just, got out of bed (at around 2 am) and started to walk around. I got back roughly 2 hours later. It was weird. I felt like... I was looking for something. Someone. Anyone. I think I was looking for someone that was like me. I think I alienate myself. I wanted to see someone else walking around this late, someone else looking. Maybe I was looking for answers, or maybe I was looking for questions. My mind started to play tricks on me, but I'm not going into that. I feel empty. I feel like there is something out there that I'm just not getting. Something is missing.

And my something inside me really wants to find it.

Just a general update for me. Found a new band that I'm super liking, they're Hanzel Und Gretyl, a German band. Pretty fucking heavy. You would like them Madams.
On a side note, Emily is got me both a DethKlok shirt and Disgaea: Afternoon of Darkness (psp)

Did I mention she is the fucking win?

Man, last night was amazing. Thanks a ton Emily <3

What up ElJay.
Long time no post.

Its because for once in my life, I'm damn happy. And I don't feel like bragging I guess.

Just stopping in and saying hi.

Bye for now ElJay.

You open your mouth again
my god I can not take it.
You open your mouth again
I swear I'm gonna break it.




Protective? I'll show you protective.


You taught me hate, I'll teach you fear.

FUCK YOU WARHAMMER, LET ME IN THE BETA.

what I do with my spare time.

http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com/

watch it. its long, but worth it.

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NEDM.

It smells a lot like murder right now.

The Devil's Playground

Welcome to hell
Leave your soul with the keeper
(Welcome to hell..)
Do you now fear the Reaper?
(welcome to hell..)
You're on our side of town.
(welcome to hell)
In the darkness you'll drown.

We harvest the lost, hunt the wounded,
We'll kill just for spite, and rape the used.
We install suffering in a peace ridden town.
Our methods systematic and you can't hold us down.

So forget your loved,
forget your families,
forget your feelings, they won't help you here.
I'll slaughter your mind, abuse your body.
Cast into the flames,
Hear the hounds at your heels?
Your god has long left you
and I...
Welcome you to Hell.

I like this one. Turned out a lot better than I thought it was going to.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=MdzchIMi43Y

too.damn.funny.

I can't wait to get my new hat on friday. FNL or it didn't happen.

So I was checking my spam box today and I saw this.
"
Your penis is as thin as the tree branch. With Penis Enlarge Patch it will be as thick as a tree trunk.

http://www.laber.hk/

With Penis Enlarge Patch your penis will never fit in her hand."

And so I think to myself, if my penis was as thick as a tree trunk, I would have a damn hard time finding pants. And since when was it appealing to guys to have their ladies not be able to handle them? How is this supposed to be appealing at all? Maybe its only funny because its like 3am.

ya know what? we're all too damn wacky and crazy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JBqEe53xOqY

elohel.

I just stepped on a goddamn toothpick and had it shoved up my foot.
But then I ripped it out.
I'm hardcore like that.

6/5/07 ^^

^^

oh man I had forgotten what happy felt like.